Tuesday, December 13, 2011
Who I am, what I come from
This is my first post, so I better write a bit about me and where I am in life.
I'm 19, female, living at home, currently suffering and working through a host of illnesses that I have had since almost ever. I've healed a lot of what I suffered with already, but some major things remain. I suffer from depression, and social anxiety, and overeating, all of which keep me nearly housebound, unable to function in things such as school or in friendships. I am going about healing myself in a holistic way.
I have already healed myself of chronic fatigue. I still have fatigue but it is nowhere near the "chronic" level it used to be at. I used to cry every day I woke up, wondering why I was more tired than when I went to sleep. I also used to have diagnosed IBS, which was horrible and lasted throughout my childhood. Lastly I used to have anger problems. I used to self harm, and I remember once when I was angry at my mother I took a knife and stabbed her bed, fantasizing about stabbing her. Who knew that all of these symptoms were a result of a food allergy, and while the anger and the IBS are 100% gone, the fatigue is still around at a much lower level.
I've tried all sorts of things in my holistic quest, vitamins and minerals, exercise, diet, yoga, positive thinking, exposure therapy, therapy-therapy, but I have stuck to only few of them consistently. A lot of them work, and am always finding things to slowly add to my plan to help me heal. I find that gradual works better than sporadic and extreme.
I'm 19, female, living at home, currently suffering and working through a host of illnesses that I have had since almost ever. I've healed a lot of what I suffered with already, but some major things remain. I suffer from depression, and social anxiety, and overeating, all of which keep me nearly housebound, unable to function in things such as school or in friendships. I am going about healing myself in a holistic way.
I have already healed myself of chronic fatigue. I still have fatigue but it is nowhere near the "chronic" level it used to be at. I used to cry every day I woke up, wondering why I was more tired than when I went to sleep. I also used to have diagnosed IBS, which was horrible and lasted throughout my childhood. Lastly I used to have anger problems. I used to self harm, and I remember once when I was angry at my mother I took a knife and stabbed her bed, fantasizing about stabbing her. Who knew that all of these symptoms were a result of a food allergy, and while the anger and the IBS are 100% gone, the fatigue is still around at a much lower level.
I've tried all sorts of things in my holistic quest, vitamins and minerals, exercise, diet, yoga, positive thinking, exposure therapy, therapy-therapy, but I have stuck to only few of them consistently. A lot of them work, and am always finding things to slowly add to my plan to help me heal. I find that gradual works better than sporadic and extreme.
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